Why Blog?

The sordid world of infertility brought me to blogging. Sharing my story in person, outside of a few close friends, was just too damn painful, but I found a real deep felt heart to the stories I read online. There was so much respect, so much honesty, and here I was: a shameless lurker.
I didn't even know where to begin with my own behemouth of a story. I was too shy, and it just hurt too badly to share. Infertility is a temporary condition and has a definite end and resolution, one way or the other. The tough part for me was the not knowing...not knowing if I would ever have my own child, and not knowing when. I bottled all of those awful feelings up inside (yep, I was a ton of fun at parties!), and reading blogs became one of my only outlets. What we went through haunts me still...and add that to the fact that we would love more children, but I don't know if my body is up for it. I hope it is. Mentally, it is.
But the ladies that shared their stories inspired me endlessly, and I learned a lot on the way. I don't know if who I am or what I have to say makes this worthwhile, but I feel I have to. I feel I need to. I feel I OWE it to the blogging community to share who I am. I owe it to myself. And, I also OWE it to y'all to be more upbeat and happy in upcoming posts!

Crafty Girl

My idea of a good time is not partying, it's crafting! Okay, sometimes it's partying too. And with two little ladies keeping me busy at home, its also my outlet and how I get to relax at the end of a full day.
If all goes according to plan, I usually get a break from about 8-10 at night. I watch shows (current fave: Buffy the Vampire Slayer), cheesy girly movies, and craft! Sewing is the easiest...I have a sewing machine but have not yet learned how to use it. I hand sew everything! Here are a couple of my latest creations:
The Owl Pillows. And also,
Owl and Bunny Stuffies! My daughter's favorites. I also quilt. And, with hand sewing, it does take me a long time. But its fun, meditative, and completely obsessive. I love it! I will post some tutorials soon for all you fellow crafty-obsessed folks!

The first post

Where to begin. I have started and scrapped about four blogs before this one. It's tough to share, and tough to put myself out there, so blogging never really clicked. I'm happy with where I am, mighty grateful to be doing what I'm doing, and finally feel I'm in a place to share some little pieces of happiness along the way. Thanks much for stopping by and checking out the Magic Nest!